There's always another chance...

...

When you think that we've used all our chances
And the chance to make everything right
Keep on making the same old mistakes
Makes untipping the balance so easy
When were living our lives on the edge
Say a prayer on the book of the dead

...

Iron Maiden

Distance

Distance is another one of those man made concepts to define something which is indefinable. Distance is relative even to the same person, also according to the perception one has of time that, in turn, changes with the aging process... When I was a young kid, moving 30Km seemed a lot, but not I do 50 each way just to go to work and back and it seems like nothing (it would if it wasn't for the fuel price).

But this is not the kind of distance I want write about.



Friendship is also a kind of distance, throughout our lives this "distance" we have between ourselves and others seems to shorten sometimes or grow bigger other times. Sometimes you can control it others you can't. But the funny thing is that this "distance" has little to do with the real distance for sometimes people who are physically far away seem to be "closer" than others who are physically close.

Copycat

A copycat (also copy-cat or copy cat) is a person (or animal, or computer program) that mimics or repeats the behavior of another. The expression may derive from kittens that learned by imitating the behaviors of their mothers... (wikipedia)

Synthetic words are easy to be used. It is in the human nature to take ownership of the words of others and use them as our own to serve our interests. Words can cause ideas, which is good, and if we use other people's words to refresh and summon our own ideas, that is great, but it is much easier to be just a copycat, mimic other's ideas, pretend to be something we are not... that is usually called lying and deceiving.

The interesting part of this is that when words are "nice", other people tend to believe deceiving words, and when they find someone who speaks only his thoughts, one whose feelings are true, they find it hard to believe. I don't know why this happens, but it's a rather pathetic behaviour, understandable however for you cannot read other people's minds...

so why does our mind prefers to believe in lies?

I have no idea, seems that humans are naturally stupid.

We make our own destiny.

I guess we deserve to suffer.

Time

I would like to know what time is. Sometimes I feel that time is a very complex and confusing thing.

I don't know. All I know is that everything changes over time, things change, people change... hearts change... Sometimes faster, sometimes slower, just the same way as time seems to go by. Sometimes minutes seem like hours, and other times, hours seem like just an instant.

Time is usually spoken of in past, present and future, but all that really matters is the future. Past has gone by and won't return, all that left is memories... The present... is there a present? I don't think it really exits. When you talk about something you plan to do, that's in the future, but once it's done it's already in the past. You can say "while I’m ding it, that's the present". Is it? Really? Time doesn't stop, so while you are doing something, some of it is in the past, and the rest is in the future, the present is just the split second when you decide what to do.

Although you can never know what the future will bring, there are some things you can control. I think being true to yourself is the way.

That is kind of a cliché, but I think I finally understand what it really means.

My new friend

Final Fantasy originally appeared the first time 20 years ago in a time where videogames were just a dream for many people, I was 7, and no idea they existed I think (don't actually remember).

I've only known the 'reality' of Final Fantasy many years later that was in 1997 with the playstation release of Final Fantasy VII. I fell in love with this game, a tale fantasy and magic in an amazing world, so huge and with so many places to explore. It really was a dream, a fantastic story with characters with such a deep personality and each one with their own dreams, memories and stories to tell, beliefs and goals, all of this while trying to save the world.
To me is still the best game ever.

I've always wondered what existed before Final Fantasy VII (maybe VI, and V... and so on...) but I never had the time. I was until last year I’ve heard about the release of Final Fantasy VII Crisis Core for psp, later the remakes of Final Fantasy I and the new Final Fantasy Tactics War of the Lions. I just knew I needed a psp. That's what I did last week.

And yesterday it finally arrived, my first Final Fantasy game for my psp. Final Fantasy II, that's my new friend...

Forever

They say nothing lasts forever...

I think some things are meant to last for ever.
At least I can't picture them in any other way.

I've made many mistakes.
I'm not perfect...
There are many things I would change.

But I won't change my point of view on this one.
I can't allow it, I feel that's the only way to true happiness.
Even if it's not really forever,
Even if it hurts sometimes...

I have to believe is possible.

Trust

As the ability to lie is inherent to the human condition, so is the ability to believe. This concept is interesting because words can be interpreted in many ways, so you cannot be ever completely sure of what to believe.
The way I see it there are three kinds of people:

* People who have this understanding.

* People who have no idea and will believe anything.

* People who are cautious.

When someone understands this they have the power to deceive others, and the option to do it or not. The "believers" will often meet people who will take advantage of them, deceive them to serve their own futile purposes. People who are hurt will become more cautious, but sometimes become "deceivers"... so much that they might even fool themselves pretending they are something they are not. But most times people just get more cautious over time.

The thing is you can't ever be too cautious, you never know what's next in store for you. Although most times what happens is that if one is not careful enough will get hurt, sometimes being too careful may hurt other people and eventually drive them away. When you get hurt too many times, you will stop believing certain things.

You can't ever be sure...

There's one thing I'm sure though, things are never what they seem.

There are things I don't want to stop believing...
I won’t do it.