Today begins the year of the rat. I don't really know what this means, it's the beginning of something, a new time, called year. I find that familiar because I am also starting a new "year" in my life, I found that I am not able to do what I want or maybe I find it hard to know what I want.
The thing is I didn't realize I was becoming something I despise... a rat... by not knowing what I want, I was hurting someone I love... and kept doing it. Now I know the way, other people do not deserve to suffer because my uncertainties, I was just too weak to see that, as I've been all my life.
I need to be alone, and find the strength I need in myself. I find myself in the year of the rat, and I will find myself in the year of the rat.
I have to.
No comments:
Post a Comment